Day 75

One of my fears is being considered as a shallow person. So, if I receive a gift, what's inside matters more to me than the wrappings, ribbons, glitters, and the like. If I attend a show or an event, the main purpose of the event matters more to me than the confetti, balloons, toys and trinkets. When I spend time with friends, a good conversation among us will make my day more than the food and drink we have (but let's admit, good course of scrumptious meal won't hurt anyone, right? J).

I appreciate meaningful things and if I don't find a meaning in what I experience, I will feel like something is missing in my day. That is why I contemplate a lot, because profound stuff is fun.


This could cause some problems, though. Firstly, I for sure can't have "deep insightful heartfelt" day everyday. Secondly, not everyone in my circle of family and friends thinks the same as I do. Guess what? That is totally fine. There's a reason why God created the ocean and the sky, the field and the desert, the hill and the shore. As much as I love being under the water, I still have to go to the surface to breathe.

So if lately I spend more of my time outside the apartment to get fresh air—feeling the sunshine on my skin, eating gluten free pizzas, slurping non-caffeinated cold summer drink, watching cars passing by in the neighbourhood—and have less contemplating time with my journal, I still have fun. I don't need to worry about enjoying trivial things. I don't have to analyse everything. Fun is fun. If there's laughter and smile in the room, contemplation is not always necessary.

My good friend once said, "being deep is good, Winda. But don't get drowned :-)"