Gosh. . .I don't know where to begin.
This week deals with a series of phone calls and appointments in regards to MS treatment and medication. From pharmacy call, financial aid application, physical therapy, ordering hip flexion assist device, and a follow-up consultation with the neurologist—quite a lot to take in at once.
In summary, I cannot start taking my medication (Copaxone) unless I have received financial aid from an organisation or insurance company who covers the entire cost for this long-term med. The problem is, most organisations and insurance companies only provide financial assistance to US citizens or permanent residents. What a seemingly impossible situation. It's devastating. My neurologist advised me to consider applying to register permanent residence. If only that is as easy as signing up for a social networking site!
I feel like a dark thick cloud started to suffuse my brain. Has everything become useless here? Should I just go home, accept my condition, and watch it goes downhill? What's the point of doing all of this?
Maybe it's a coincidence, but this song appeared on my feed in the midst of my confusion. . .
Give me the faith to believe You / when I'm stuck here in my fear
Give me the strength to trust You / when my vision's blurred by tears
Give me a hope for tomorrow / 'cause today has gone so wrong
I'm on my knees / give me the faith to believe
You say You'll never leave me / that Your love will conquer fear
You say Your day is coming / when You'll wipe away my tears
Give me a hope for tomorrow / 'cause today has gone so wrong
I'm on my knees / give me the faith to believe
Won't You give me the faith to see the invisible
Give me the faith to believe the impossible
Give me the faith to receive the incredible
Oh give me the faith to believe it
Oh give me the faith to believe it
Even when I cannot see You / You're still shining / You're still shining
Even when I cannot hear You / You're still calling out my name
Even when I cannot feel You / Your arms are open / always holding on to me
Give me the faith to believe //
— Shane & Shane
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