I woke up early—around 5:30 am because I had to take TOEFL exam—and it was going to be my very first TOEFL exam ever. It was crucial. But guess what came up? Nausea. Yikes. Not only did I throw up, I also had diarrhoea! What a horrible morning.
I suspect it was food-poisoning because my family and I had dinner at a restaurant instead of having homemade meals as usual. FYI, I have been eating non-processed food/homemade meals/paleo diet in the last 6 months. So, I was certain the food I ate last night contained salt or MSG. I cried in frustration because I did not want to cancel the test. Unfortunately, I couldn't reschedule and it was non-refundable. I felt too sick to even get up from bed. As a consequence, I couldn't make it to the exam location. I'll have to re-register and pay another $160 :(
At times like that, I questioned God's Sovereignty. Wasn't He aware of my schedule? Why did He let me experience those nauseous feelings? It's not like I didn't pray or commit my plans to Him beforehand. So, why?
YouVersion's Verse of the day unexpectedly answered my question.
"Just as you cannot understand the path of the wind . . . so you cannot understand the activity of God, who does all things."
- Ecclesiastes 11:5
God enjoys being mysterious, doesn't He? I can never comprehend the mystery at work in all that my Lord does. He never actually requires me to fully grasp it, anyway.
Another mysterious thing? I suddenly went into remission tonight. Hallelujah!
((a 'remission' in MS means temporary recovery where I experience fewer or no symptom such as numbness, fatigue, tingling/burning sensation, blurry vision, clumsiness, etc. It doesn't mean that I am MS-free or healed; I am just having less severe symptoms. This happens only occasionally so I am amazed!))
God's way of work is a mystery, indeed.
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